Friday, March 13, 2009

If I were not a pumice rock, what would I be?


I would be like a flower, a rose, so beautiful and graceful, a staple in a love scenario, a pleasant gift, a get-well, thank-you, drive-carefully kind of present.

I would be like kosher salt: a must-have seasoning, reduces sourness, enhances flavors, any chef can't do without.

I would be like a tight rope, a willing prey to circus and its walker, teetering between carefree and flight.

I would be like the morning sun as it slowly creeps up the sky and splashes yellows and orange and pink and sometimes lime green and makes an early riser smile.

I would be like a wave that walks and runs and stampedes ashore, licks the sand and combs the bank free of colorful shells and corals and more sand.
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If I were a pumice rock - second

When commuting aboard a jeepney in Manila, I would seat closest to the driver's backseat, cling ferociously to his bottle-blonde ponytail and remind myself that God loves all creatures, great and small.

Snorkeling in Moorea, I would marvel at how friendly the slimy manta rays are and thank God for letting me float safely among them and providing an abundant supply of tuna and mackerel.

Vis a vis a cuddly dog, I would make myself twirl like a baton on busy wheels and watch how my furry friend's chubby tail speed up its rotation.

While on a hike with my friend Rose, I would play hide-and-seek, plant myself firmly next to a boulder and cause a search and rescue mission aired on CNN and Nancy Grace while my rock-heart aches for Rose's tears.
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If I were a pumice rock - first


Living in a tropical island, I would settle my pumice bottom near an alabaster-sandy beach and muster a sexy whistle everytime a sunkissed local pair of sturdy, hennaed legs saunter by.

When in New York, I would prop my weightless form on a Manhattan apartment's rooftop balcony, perch on the rail and catch my breathless life while watching the city sleep and toss.

Aboard a plane to Asia from the US, I would check myself in a luggage snug enough for me not to roll around and flop back and forth through umpteenth hours of fly time.

Once in Sedona, I would quickly divulge that my race is purely pumice, but that I am open to the possibility of some pink and red rock cousins.

Next to Elvis Presley's star in Hollywood, I would play serious dead with ketchup and larger craters on me just so some paparazzi would take a snapshot and splash my photo on People magazine...so that maybe one day CSI would take notice and hire me as a victim.
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basically Yours

Convivially, I should attend to all the comments and e-mails that I get when I tell everyone my most private thoughts and, oh, my weaknesses even. But there is a small chance that a lot of people will bump into my own quiet place.

Simply, I don't advertise it, I don't really share it with just anyone, I don't even tell my immediate family about it. I don't even talk about what I really do on a day-to-day basis, or what, quote-unquote, achievements in the bubble-world out there I snag, or how much I do for this and that which, ideal-worldly, merits accolade and, yes, some kind of vertical trophy or something thicker than a cardboard to stuff into some Office Depot certificate frame.

So what is the purpose of this? At first it was just my way of exercise: a sort-of platform to air out what bogs my head when I think, or when I want to say something to someone close but couldn't because it's not appropos at the time or that it's simply immature to even utter, or when I feel like the flow is within me and I want God to be in the know like I am in the know of what's going on in my head, or just to be in the same page with God, because as we all know we aren't always in the same page with the Almighty. It is my own quiet place to be me - suddenly, internally, vocally, artistically, whimsically, stupidly, spiritually - from all adverbial vantage points thesaurus has already, previously factored as a word.

Besides I just am done with the ex-crap, for lack of a better noun, that came with my in-and-ex-baggage I now refer to as pride. It was the stupidity of pride and the ingenuity of embellished prejudice that prevent one's lowest self to be thrown in the air and left to be picked up by a Power stronger and higher than itself. Holding tight to a configuration of self, or the idea of self, is plain stupid in my spiffed-up notion of wisdom, which happens to be the kind that originated from my Maker.

See, I am nobody special to a lot of human beings, but I am special especially to my Maker. This alone, now, gives me peace. He knows what I am doing at all times. I don't really have to announce to Him what my heart's desires are, because He knows me inside and out. But when I blog here, when I use this platform to cry out to Him, it's as if He is right there, ready with His keyboard, ready to respond and comment, or not respond and comment, ready to understand everything I say, ready to forgive me for the foibles that I say in-between-the-lines, ready to decipher the in-between-the-lines before they even come out of here. He is ready for me at all times. He always says, I'm basically yours, my love.

Many times I ask myself: Why do I bother or not bother? Why is it that I am compelled from the deepest recesses of my heart to talk to Him? I don't even seem to exist for any other reason, but to exist for Him. But there is where I could be wrong: He made me for something and that something is so close to me now, just as far as I could stretch my arm. I could smell the purpose. I could even feel the static that creates a whizzing noise when the thin spark implodes. It is here, my purpose. Tapping on my heart, it is here. I am to do what I am supposed to do.

You know what I say to my Maker? Now I say, I am basically Yours, my Maker! Do with me what You will for me to do.

--June 11, 2008, Year of New Beginnings